Stop and let me breathe...

I'm keen to your ways, I'm hip to your game
But still I come back, like a moth to a flame
I was completely fine, until you crossed that line...
I'd like to see you through, but some things never change

In accordance to Thursday

Does anyone else ever use words they aren't 100% sure about the meaning of? I do it all the time. My thoughts? "I hope that means how I used it, because it sounds right."

Time Travel:
Back to Thursday, December 9th, 2010. One of the best nights of my life. Traveled to Ohio with Danny and Kyan. Saw Alcatraz Circa 1962, Counterparts, Legends, Monsters, Hundredth, SHAI HULUD, and Abacabb. This was Abacabb's farewell tour. Shai Hulud was so amazing. I got to meet Matt while Hundreth was playing. We watched Monsters, then Shai Hulud set up. Front row, I got to see my favorite band ever. After about the first or second song, I was pretty pumped and decided to throw down. Not even seven seconds after stepping away from the stage, I'm on the ground. I stepped back, started dancing, and BOOM. Chokeslammed and I'm on the ground with some burly guy dressed in all black on top of me. I felt his elbow wrap around my throat and start to take me down, so I decided to grab his shoulder and take him down with me.(LOL)I got up, and the kid standing beside me goes O_o "Are you okay?!" I was like, "Yeah man, I'm alright. My jaw kind of hurts though." haha
The set list wasn't as long as I would have liked, it never is though. Matt made sure to dedicate Given Flight By Demon's Wings to me, which was AMAZING!

Golden moment of the night...
During Given Flight, Mike came down and put his forehead to mine with the mic in between us and we sang, "Breathe easy friend, let not bitter fruit sour your breath, you were once a gentleman." Best. Moment. EVER!
Afterwards Mike came up and gave me hug and thanked me for being a good fan. :] I love when that happens.

So we headed home after getting Denny's in Ohio and it started snowing when we dropped Danny off. The ride home was scary, and I thought I was going to lose my life. I did not, obviously.

I visited my parents Friday night and they invited me to move back home for winter break. (Yay!)

This is a recollection of my past few days. Finals week is coming up on Monday, I will gone until further notice. In the meantime, I leave you with this note:

The Trigger

After listening to Light's song, I wonder - "Who will drive my soul?" She is a great influence, I ran across this song on 8tracks.com. If you don't listen, I highly suggest this site for music, it stomps Pandora - no doubt.

*SHAI HULUD*
So, this Thursday my new friend Danny and I are traveling to Ohio to see Shai Hulud. I could not be a more happy girl. (okay so maybe if they played "Love is the Fall"). But coincidentally, I became friends with Matthew Fox, who is one of the original members of Shai Hulud. I love to pick this guy's brain, and play scrabble with him. I cannot wait for this show, I think it's going to be the best show ever. I just hope I don't die in the pit. :]

I'm going to see my parents tomorrow, which is hopefully going to go well.

Elizabeth and I were talking about how crazy fast things can change in a year.
Let's rewind a bit, last October:
-I had just started modeling
-I was working for Res Life
-Had stopped being friends with Holleh, and started being friends with Kera
-Had just discovered Lydia, which is how I met Heath

Now:
-NOT working for res life (LOL)
-Not living with my parents
-Single for 9 months
-No ONE best friend, but a lot more friends
-Working for the Emerson? haha
-Have had over 50 photoshoots

Ok, some of these "accomplishments" are lame, but they are what's changed in the past year. There are a lot more, just things I'm not comfortable spilling on the internet. :x
Hopefully, I'll have made as much progress next year. I'm not going to lie, I've been through SO much in the past year. Homeless, heartbroken, lost some friends (physically and figuratively), trials. But all this has helped me travel this journey and write my story.

What has the last year done for you?

Anew

This is my blog. I've had it for over a year... and no one knows about it. I used to have a lot of things posted here, but I deleted all of them. I'm starting fresh, and am actually going to let people read it now. :]
Hopefully this will be a place for people to come and read intelligent(s) and funny(s) things that are usually bottled up in my mind. Not sure it will matter to anyone, but I will know it's here.