God gives

So, my $700 refund I've been waiting for all semester? Well it came....but it came to my mom. She was infuriated when I called and told her about it, and said she was sending it back and that it would mess up her disability. This was two days ago, she got angry and said she'd call me back in a few days. I had this urgency in me to call her today. I called her, and before I could even ask her about anything, she said she had got the refund and cashed the check (just like my uncle said she would do). After explaining that she invited my sister over last night, blew a bunch of the money and gave my sister $100, she was keeping some to buy her a pair of shoes. She asked if it were okay if she give me $300. I said yes, because I figured that was better than nothing. I had been in the tanning bed, thinking about it when I got the urgency to call my mother. After tanning, and while I was getting dressed, I talked to God. I said, "God, have your way in this call. Do what you want with this money. If you don't want me to have it, then I don't want any of it. But if you give it to me, I'd be thankful too." My mom told me she had given her neighbor lady some money too, and used some of it to buy a 30 pack of beer and a carton of cigarettes. Personally, I think it's unfair she used my school money to just squander away, when I need the money for living expenses and books. BUT God is a just God and a fair God, and He gave me what He thought I needed. It's $300 more than what I had, so for that I'm thankful. God will see to it that I am provided for. It just really hurts my feelings that my "family" would take this money from my school and just blow it on stuff. My sister wasn't even going to tell me. If it weren't for me going to school and furthering myself, they wouldn't even have ever seen that money. It frustrates me, and I feel like I got stabbed in the back and wronged. But like I said before, God will take care of me. He will judge them for what they've done, and it's not my place.

I'm waiting for Sierra to get done with a meeting, and she is going to let me borrow her truck to go to Indy. Thank God, because my car would NOT make it that far with the CV joint like it is right now.

Thank you, Lord, for being sovereign and always providing.