Healing

Tonight I went to Bible study at Calvary Temple. I had messed my knee up about a month and a half ago playing ga-ga. Well, when that had happened Lawrence asked if he could pray for me. I told him no, and that I was fine. I've been in excruciating pain since then. So, I asked him to pray for me tonight. He, Darrien, and his girlfriend all prayed for me. I felt my knee heal right then and there. It's FINE, no pain. It's healed. It's amazing to first hand witness something like that. I thank GOD For this divine healing. I have seriously been in SO much pain, and it's all gone now!!!! :D

My Blog Title in Japanese

Yuka taught me how to say my blog name in Japanese :] It's really cool.. So I thought I'd share :D

Daiku kiss cocolocala utchgoshi oiday

that's my interpretation of the spelling haha

Holding Tight

Here is a short update:

Sierra and I drove to Indy yesterday. Because I wouldn't go in this crackhouse with my mom, she wouldn't give me my money. She refused to give it to me unless I went in this house. I was NOT going in that house, and if you saw it, neither would you. So I didn't get my money. My brother, did, however buy the part I need for my car. I have a buddy who looked at it last night, and he might fix it today. :] If not, my brother is going to come down and fix it. I love him. He gave some really good advice, and I appreciate that.

Instead of getting mad at God, I am still holding to His promises. He told me to go there..and I went. I'm holding strong to 2 Corinthians 9:8 right now. God is teaching me things, and I'm trying to understand that. I know He wouldn't just have me running around not knowing what I'm doing. I didn't get the money, but that's okay because God will STILL provide. :]

God gives

So, my $700 refund I've been waiting for all semester? Well it came....but it came to my mom. She was infuriated when I called and told her about it, and said she was sending it back and that it would mess up her disability. This was two days ago, she got angry and said she'd call me back in a few days. I had this urgency in me to call her today. I called her, and before I could even ask her about anything, she said she had got the refund and cashed the check (just like my uncle said she would do). After explaining that she invited my sister over last night, blew a bunch of the money and gave my sister $100, she was keeping some to buy her a pair of shoes. She asked if it were okay if she give me $300. I said yes, because I figured that was better than nothing. I had been in the tanning bed, thinking about it when I got the urgency to call my mother. After tanning, and while I was getting dressed, I talked to God. I said, "God, have your way in this call. Do what you want with this money. If you don't want me to have it, then I don't want any of it. But if you give it to me, I'd be thankful too." My mom told me she had given her neighbor lady some money too, and used some of it to buy a 30 pack of beer and a carton of cigarettes. Personally, I think it's unfair she used my school money to just squander away, when I need the money for living expenses and books. BUT God is a just God and a fair God, and He gave me what He thought I needed. It's $300 more than what I had, so for that I'm thankful. God will see to it that I am provided for. It just really hurts my feelings that my "family" would take this money from my school and just blow it on stuff. My sister wasn't even going to tell me. If it weren't for me going to school and furthering myself, they wouldn't even have ever seen that money. It frustrates me, and I feel like I got stabbed in the back and wronged. But like I said before, God will take care of me. He will judge them for what they've done, and it's not my place.

I'm waiting for Sierra to get done with a meeting, and she is going to let me borrow her truck to go to Indy. Thank God, because my car would NOT make it that far with the CV joint like it is right now.

Thank you, Lord, for being sovereign and always providing.

Life is a Roller Coaster

So, life has been a roller coaster lately. I cannot even begin to explain all the things that have been going on. I'm being refined through the fire, and that's okay. I've had revelation about my "friends" and that's okay too.

I deactivated my Facebook about an hour ago. It's going to remain that way until after all my finals. I also logged out of my Tumblr and am not going to get back on it until after finals.

I thought I was failing my Pediatrics class, but I met with my professor today, and she said I still have a shot. So, I'm working my butt off, because I can only miss questions on the final.

I'm in the library...not getting anything done. I need to go find my book, and buy a couple more notebooks. I know that's a silly excuse to stop studying, but that's what I've got to go do.

I'm about to work on my paperwork for my Discipleship class at church. I am amazed at how far God has brought me, just this year alone! I am SO excited for SALT. SALT is the Chi Alpha winter retreat...and I'm going! Someone is sponsoring me, so I will be able to go! :D

In other words... I cannot get over A Loss For Words. They are seriously in my Top 5 bands of all time. Matt's voice, is angelic, and I love them.

That is all for now, more exciting things to come! :]

Been a while

Wow, have not posted in a very long time! I plan on updating this more recently, as some insight to my spiritual walk. Hope all my readers enjoy. :]

Christian bands

I'm creating a post about GOOD, Christian bands.
For those who want to know:
Some I like, not all are my faves, but they are Christian, nonetheless:

Agraceful
The Almost
As Cities Burn
August Burns Red
The Classic Crime
CLOSE YOUR EYES
Confide
Deas Vail
Destroy the Runner
The Devil Wears Prada
The Ember Days
Emery
Esterlyn
Everett
For Today
The Frozen Ocean
Gwen Stacy
Haste the Day
HUNDREDTH
I Am Alpha and Omega
Jimmy Needham
Life In Your Way
Mainstay
Sleeping Giant
Underoath

This isn't even a fraction....there are so many more, this is just what I found in my iTunes.
For some other great artists check out:
comeandlive.com

Great artists, free music, good cause. :]

Power trip

Not sure why….but lately I’ve been letting people make me feel like crap and that’s not okay. I don’t need anyone else’s subjective, unimportant opinions about me to make me feel validated. I AM VALID! I am so sick of caring so much about other people’s opinions that I let it frame me. I’m done. I’m breaking off every negative relationship I have with anyone. I’m a good woman, who is beautiful (MY subjective opinion), loves Jesus and is going somewhere with her life. If you want to try to sit around and waste my time by dragging me down, you’re going to have to move on because you’ve got the wrong girl. I’m feeling empowered tonight, and that’s that. I don’t care if I have to be by myself, because I’ve got God on my side, and that’s all I need.

I'm a failure!

I am feeling very inspired tonight. I thought I would blog about a special moment I had once with my uncle, and it's sticking out in my mind tonight.
While my uncle and I were discussing life, a few things from our conversation saturate my mind. "You are destined for failure," he said to me. With shock, I looked at him, hurt. "Well, thanks."
"Brittany all the greatest people were destined for failure. Look in the Bible. David was the youngest and the smallest, but took down a giant. Moses had a speech problem, but went on to talk to thousands. Jacob was a liar. You've been destined for failure your whole life. Set up to fall. You were abused from the beginning, shunned by your own mother. Everyone in school always rejected you. [It's because you have something great destined for you and you must overcome these things.]"

The last sentence is in brackets because I don't remember his words exactly for that last part like I do the rest.

First I was offended, then I realized what beauty his words held. I try to remember this when I'm having an off day.

Thank you Unce. <3 Your wisdom means so much to me.

Motivated...?

So this semester has officially started....and I have absolutely no motivation or hope. I'm sick right now with a really bad respiratory infection. That may be the cause of it, but who knows. Between work and school this semester...I hope things pan out. I will have to be EXTREMELY responsible and not have TOO MUCH fun. Which, sucks at the least. I'm definitely stealing a quote I ran across on tumblr.

“In my younger and more vulnerable years my father gave me some advice that I’ve been turning over in my mind ever since. ‘Whenever you feel like criticizing any one,’ he told me, ‘just remember that all the people in this world haven’t had the advantages that you’ve had.’”
— The Great Gatsby
This will be my motivation for now. Untilllll I find more. :]
Wish me luck!

The Transformation

Last night I went to church with Randy at the Terre Haute Church of God, Awaken Student Ministries. It was AWESOME. This is the beginning of something new, and something good - I can feel it. I'm working on my relationship with Christ, because I want to be where he wants me. This is where the transformation begins. 2011 is my year, and I will no longer let the world push me around. I'm excited to see what God does in my life this year. I'm aggressively seeking him.

Right now I'm going through a bit of a rough patch, a valley per say. But as the last two sermons I've heard have been about valleys, coincidence? I think not. In the valley is where things grow. The valley is where you realize how strong you are and that you can make it up another mountain. And once you reach one mountain top, you see many more from there. I am in the valley right now, growing and building strength. God never offers victories without fighting, but He says, help will always come in time.

I'm excited, and patient. Waiting, on the Lord.

:]